OMFG,so i guess im getting divorced.im not happy,1 little iota.yes im an acholic,yes i was pushing kira into drinking with me,but couldnt she still have said no.from what i can figure out,thats y im soon to be all by myself,again,with no one.she says this is not easy for her,but its easier for her her then me,cuz she is the one that wants this.and i have n ot slept with other people,to try and forget,about the other person.
i think the song "fade to black" is the best song right now that describes what im feeling,the best,and i really like "scarllet letters",its about cutting,and love.
i feel really hurt,and very angry.i want to cut myself most of the time,mostly the only thing stopping me is the fact some is normaly here.i know ive done some things i should not have done,but i thought kira would not ever realy worry about it,not to this degree.i have adrinking prob,but im not worth the trouble,anymore,she has moved on,and i have not,i can not.i feel i still have tto look out for her,cuz i love her,and i can let her go,i think,i just cant right now.i think she is doing things wrong,lioke moving to GA,but i cant tell her this cuz then i would be trying to minipulate her,and i dont want to anymore,but at what point do i say something,for her own good. do i love her enuf to let her make mistakes,i dont think so,but only cuz i think if u love someone,u want the best for them,and to to fail.

thats what i got for now
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