I have more to tell if anyone gives a shit,witch i doubt anyone does. So i will write this for me.so i can relive the pain,the hurt,the anger.this will no longer b about anyone,but me.its not worth it to bring other people in on my pain.i cant stand to bear it,y would anyone in there right mind want to.i am not going to go and follow,anyone.
i am going to do what ive always done.just b me,where i am.im not happy about it,but better unhappy,then tortured.cuz i have to stay strong,at least enuf un til she leaves,then i can,do what i need/want to,and fall to peices.cuz i cant take the ups and downs,any longer.its too much.i will proly repeat meself,but o well,thats me,i repeat me self alot,it seems.i cant seem to find any music that does not influence me,everything seems to b about love,or pain,hurt.i feel all,and it makes me think,and think,too much,to the point where it make me do things i regret later,and make myself feel stupid.that i sould have known better,but im emotionality unbalanced.I HATE THE FACT I CANT BE NORMAL.y i think,and feel these ways.

i dont know what to put right now,so
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